he(LL)ndon bound

brought the boy out to Wimbly Lu on Sunday cuz he's never been there!!! 

Was so happy because we reached there around 12/12:30 but it wasn't even packed at all?? so rare for wimbly not to be packed on a Sunday :-)

He loved the food, I loved his company even more so it was a nice and simple date :') so precious.

Fries in a dim sum basket NOM NOM NOOM

he met Zherru, Raachu, Dinodana and Justiinnnnn after at night at HV to chill. I had to head home cuz yeah gotta be a good girl plus I have As LOL :'( 

Was soooo tired on my way home and was a bit bumped that I couldn't be having fun and chilling too but hey HE IS SUCH A CUTIE HAHAH I CANNOT he included me in their group selfie 

might be weird as hell to others but it's really one of the smallest but sweetest actions :')

Thank God for a public holiday today, hope everyone had a good break :-)

Headed down to SMU to study #AforEffort. SBQ really messed with my brains, I don't even know why?!?!?! usually I handle it quite well but sigh :'( Thankful that Leon accompanied me even though he doesn't exactly have to?!! so sweet nawww. 

brought him to Makisan cuz he hasn't tried before also HAHAHA 

I LOVE MAKISAN.

So happy he found it yummy?? hahahaha

Thumbs up for our somewhat matchy matchy outfits?!?!? HAHAHA i lav it

After that we headed to his place for dinner, I love eating his mother's food, super yummy :')

was kinda meh cuz like he was gonna book into Hendon, sigh NS hahaha.

"Everytime spent feeling shitty is wasting time that could be spent being happy together."

Just spoke to him on the phone and texted him for abit, so glad that Hendon is going pretty well for him!!! I mean he's going to be there till he ORDs sooooo just so glad that alls well.

It's gonna be hell for the both of us from now on, we'll both be fighting our own battles (As and Army). My hell is definitely starting with all the revision lessons and extra classes packed back to back and all. Definitely not going to be easy but hey, if we can get through this; 

what could be harder, right? :-)

Abrupt ending, till next time x

why do I get so easily agitated by the smallest of things?

 Sometimes I really don't know if I know what I want. Sometimes it's as if you get the right things at the wrong time. I don't know why I'm thinking along such lines cuz I should've already straightened out my thoughts, but well. And then again I think and I'm just like what's wrong with not feeling okay about certain things at times right? I mean I don't think it's right for me to always compromise on the way I feel about things at the expense of my feelings.

Everything is so volatile right now and I know these emotions are unhealthy for my system. But I just hope it's all a passing phase because if not it will definitely come up again in the future, I can feel it already.

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on a side note,

Haven't done a math tutorial in ages #modelstudent fml. 

Correlation tutorial be pissing the shit out of me.... nvm I tried man, A FOR EFFORT.

you make me happier than llao llao :')

Woke up feeling especially happy today because Leon is back from Taiwan!!! I planned to wait for him till his plane touched down in SG but....... I was too tired and crashed all the way HAHAHA

I got to see him in the afternoon anyway soooooo :') I felt so bad cuz, I WAS LATE. AGAIN. 

I have major punctuality issues sigh :-(

OOTD before leaving the house although you're late alr, yup dedication right there HAHA.

We already planned the day, and there was just really one thing we had on our to-do-today list: 

TRY LLAO LLAO. 

There's this intense craze about it?!?!? like while he was in Taiwan we were talking about how there were so many llao llao pics on our instagram feed hahahaha

While waiting to go for lunch at Paradise Dynasty HEHEHE so so so happy he is back, I think I said "I miss(ed) you" to him like 10 times otw to town HAHAHA

My very adorable Saturdate hehe 

he was like, "I'm at my favourite food place with my favourite person" so AWW worthy i melted a little on the inside HAHA

We found llao llao!!! 

It's like at the basement of 313 Somerset, there was quite a loooong queue but hey we had fun taking pictures HEHEHEH 

Love how the pictures turn out?!?! My fisheye lens is one of the best investment/possesion man :')

WE WERE FINALLY NEARING THE ACTUAL STORE HAHAHA *excites*

llao llao was REAAAALLY nice man. We didn't wait all that long either, SO worth the wait :') 

The part where he smeared llao llao onto my face (video on insta!!) wasn't cool though PSSHHH HAHAHAHAHA

Left town after walking around scape and cine for a bit because the weather was too damn hot to do anything :-(

We are SO weird but we're weird together in the same ways hehehe. 

I love you, thank you for yet another great day :')

Dinner after with the family ECP!! noms on all the chicken wings, satay, gong gong, fried oyster 

-brb salivating-

yet another reason why I'm in love with my fisheye lens HEHEHE

till next time!!!!! :-)

It's 12:17am and I thought my night would be off to a great start... but I guess not.

I'm starting to doubt everything that's ever been there. Everything, and now thinking about it I don't know how sure I am about anything at all anymore. I feel like just bawling my eyes out cause I honestly feel very lost and upset right now. 

I told you I was am messy and complex. You knew what you were getting yourself into, and I thought you were okay with it; okay with me as I am. I thought your love was unconditional, thought you saw my blunt and rough edges but still loved me anyway. Maybe I thought wrong.

Here's to another long ass night of me trying to get my shit together. 

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I'm probably better off alone.

laze haze daze

Today was a really chill weekend... didn't do much but laze around? 

Feels like things are slowing changing at home and everything is just getting duller by the days sigh. 

It's 1:01 am as of now and here I am just thinking about things and missing this boy who is stuffing his face with some fried dim sum thingy as seen in the picture HAHAHA. I think I'm missing him more than I should, AH WELL. 

Things haven't been exactly great, both at school and at home. Right now everything seems so uncertain but that isn't the scary thing. I think it's scarier that I'm starting to get used to it. But it scares me even more that I don't know how to cope. 

Like mmm, do I keep my thoughts to myself (like I always have) or? 

It's frustrating and troubling. :-( Times like these I find myself being pushed to a corner and I'm like forced to think of how to deal with shit at hand. Just really hope things will take a turn for the better soon sigh, we'll see.

start of something new

Saturday, 12th July 2014

Now that Leon's overseas I cannot blog about anything because he isn't here sigh sigh sigh 

JK OF CUZ NOT HAHAHA soooo this was last saturday hehe. 

Planned to head down for Ziyun's film showcase at The Artshouse! Which is a place I honestly never knew existed in Singapore?!??! HAHA but yes I rmb during Pre U Sem, when we bunked with each other she mentioned about her film showcase :-) okay we had individual rooms allocated for the seminar but hey where's the fun in sleeping alone?!??! HAHAHA. She is srsly a super nice person and I knew she put in ALOTTTT of effort for her film (from the way she spoke of the preparation for it, challenges she faced etc) so of course I will show my support ah!!! 

wouldn't have missed it for anything else in the world man ;-)

Leon agreed to go with me!!! was super thankful that he came along cuz... if not I would have watched it myself :(((( hahaha and I just really enjoy having him around la I admit hehe. I mean we don;t exactly have ALOT of time to spend with each other to begin with sooooo I treasure every moment that we can :-) 

WAS LATE AS USUAL gahhhh punctuality issues whats new

Leon's army friend, Paul, invited us to attend a youth service at NCC!!! The showcase was in the evening so we headed down for the service first :-)

thank you for the invite really appreciate it heh.

Emily was studying at NLB with Weixiang and we were around the area so popped by to look for her! Really like how we were kinda matchy matchy that day with all the boots and navy going on HAHAHA well i'm really lucky to have met someone who has similar taste and view on things with me, right? ;) hehe.

IDEK why we are friends HAHAHA :*

Made our way to The Artshouse after!!! We are super good with directions so we walked and walked and walked and walked and walked and walked and walked and walked and found our way there 

yes that's right

LOL NO JUST KIDDING had no idea where that place was sooo CAB LOR HAHA

The architecture and look of the place was so nice!!! really lived up to it's name of an Artshouse haha. we reached a tad bit early so picture time HEHEHE

In the film room!!!!!

The showcase was about 1.5 hours? Enjoyed most of the films!!!! They had really good concepts and ideas for a short film. Of course my favourite was Ziyun's (not even being biased here). I also like the other one, Frozen In Time which was about Dementia :-) 

WELL DONE DIRECTOR ANG HEHE i love you :*

Took a really nice and romantic stroll out of the Artshouse HAHAHA

Took a train down to dhoby to have dinner at Tim Ho Wan!! 

I've never tried it before but hey wow it was really good?!?!?!!?

we had to wait for abit cuz but hehehehe it was SOOOOO worth the wait :-)

here's to many more amazing weekends with you, :-)