(post) prelims 2

Post prelims part 2!!!! 

ok before I go on I know it seems like I'm on my holidays already already or what.. but honestly I am not having the time of my life (or so it may seem). I just upload the nicer moments/photos of the post prelims period, that's about it. :-) Not that I'm mugging 24/7 or anything but yeah I just don't want anyone to have the wrong idea! okaaay now with that cleared up :-)

Walking out of my condo hehe!!!! we brought out shades out and stuff that day (super step i know HAHA) so we thought like why not take more pictures HEHE (okay that's just an excuse)

 

Church anniversary 2014!!

Met him after!! wanted to get some Sunday Folks but the queue was insane so a another time maybe.

We bought 2 groupons for steak buffet at Barossa ^__^ 

WHICH WAS SO GOOD??

you're so precious to me :') he is such a sweetheart. Where do I even begin haha. We did the boyfriend tag thingy while waiting for our food to come (it took quite a long while). I love how he is always so spontaneous about doing things with me HAHAHA. like my heels killed my feet after awhile cuz I was in them the whole day.. and he wanted to carry me HAHAH AWwWwW

That was one short but special night ahhhh *melts into a puddle*

Went back to school during one of the days to study for a short while! AC boy crashing RI tsk HAHA

he felt SO out of place like he suddenly got really anxious HAHAHA so funny 

not so funny though cuz he made me crash AC in my RI uni... which was my turn to freak out HAHAHAH >:(

NUUU y u gotta book in bæ :(

till then x

different kind of buzz

(typed this otw home hehe)

I realised that the magic of genuine friendships are underrated, and the beauty of relationships are slightly overrated. I've never really had friendships, i've always been (and still am) a "everybody's friend" kinda person. But I've come to learn that those are what people call acquaintances. 

Being in a state of nothingness and hopelessness for so long... I thought nothing could tide me over this, and it scared me to think I have to remain in this miserable state forever. 

But hey.... I realised I didn't have to. 

"Good things fall apart,

so that better things can come together"

How my life turns out is what I fill it with. And closing one door, opened up so many others. I know my sentences doesn't rlly quite make sense rn but I'm just spilling my thoughts so whatever hehe. 

I'm the kind of person that is very.. loser-ish, I don't deny it. I admit, I really don't have cliques and a lot of people I can hang with etc. 

I remember blogging about this back when I was in secondary school before HAHAHAHA but yes, it's something I've come to terms with over time. I was always envious of people who could call on a bunch of friends to chill or yknow have a BFF that they can turn to as and when.

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Recently, my social life has taken a change for the better. My life is now filled with friends, friends I hold really, really close to my heart. As with every relationship (friendship or Bgr), there are different kinds of challenges. But if there's something I've learnt, it is that everyone is different; together with their pros, they also come with different types of flaws 

and to truly love and want to keep them is to take both their good and bad. 

My friends probably wouldn't know how important they are to me and how much they've done for me (unknowingly). I feel like... a part of me is complete. And no I didn't gain like 50 new friends or something haha, just a few indispensable ones. 

I don't think everyone would understand where I'm coming from, because having close friends for many is something that has been part of their life or comes so naturally for them. 

But unfortunately (or fortunately), it wasn't the case for me. 

Every single one of them add a different color to my life and even though I'm not the perfect friend, and I piss the shit out of them at times (/all the time HAHA), I can never be grateful enough for them. 

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I guess all this totals up to something special for me. It's like a part of me is rekindling? 

(was it ever kindled to begin with though, not sure) 

like a part of me is awakened as my heart takes in all the little blessings that come with them (or them in essence). but all I really know is that, 

the last time I was this grateful for something in my life was Shawn. 

and that means this must be pretty damn special. 

:')

J

School

this is the person who always bojios me to lunches and yes ok la jk still love her haha

Today at tuition, I met this girl, let's call her J. She's sec 3 now and yeah we gelled pretty well cuz lol too tired for this tuition thing. So we takes and I got to know a bit more about her, where she's schooling at and all. One thing that struck me was, although she didn't explicitly say it, but she was really falling through the cracks in this education system. 

She told me how she was failing almost all her subjects. The tone of her voice was so... sad. Because it didn't have a trace of hope. I asked her if she was looking to enter poly or JC, and she just said wherever her friend goes she would just follow. I could see that she was just doing this studying thingy because she has to, and it's like a never-ending routine. I know it's pretty common nowadays and she's not the only one haha. But it's definitely the first time I've personally spoken to someone who was just praying that the school wouldn't retain her at sec 3.

I just continued listening to her talk and I didn't really feel the need to tell her much because, 

there's nothing much to tell someone when they need is a listening ear right? 

I recall being a 15 year old. In a school where most people were looking to go into Business course in poly or MJ/TJ. Remembering not doing well for school (i never did well lol)... but not exactly feeling hopeless? In fact I think hope was what continued to motivate and propel me forward.

I guess it struck me that not everyone is trying to make it to the top, 

some just wanna make it out alive. 

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On a side note I can't wait for my vlow to call me already hahahah 

SHE's TAKING FOREVER