Stuck in love

Time check: 2:49am 

Decided to watch Stuck in Love on a Saturday night. I got to know about this movie after reading Irinatyt's blog a while back! (i love love love her blog btw haha) 

Torrented the movie and heard quite a lot of good reviews about it but never got down to watching it. 

This is her actual blog post about it. 

I'll take parts from there I feel is relevant and italicise it because I really like the way she words her thoughts :')

...I fell in love like 45 times but I bawled my eyes out too. This movie came to me at the most perfect timing. I really needed something to give me a little clarity in this mess that I am in, from someone else's perspective. I am so glad I found Stuck In Love.

The movie showcases many relatable feelings and addresses the common human-struggle issues such as loss, betrayal, vulnerability, first love, heartbreak, commitment, trust issues, promises, and of course second chances.

This hit me pretty hard. Constant state of denial. It's true, isn't it? That some people choose to avoid problems. They think, if they don't acknowledge it, then just maybe.... just maybe the problem is not even there at all. Some people choose to run. And that's pretty unfair for people who chase.

I think I've entered this state of being cynical. I don't know, I never thought I'll end up being in this state. I mean it isn't a bad thing, but just that you know I've always been the sort of hopeless romantic (on the inside, at least) but right now it just isn't the same anymore. 

It's interesting being in this state though, it really is.

"She was hoping to find some piece of you in it"

That. That. ....I absolutely love this part of the movie, for getting what I've been trying to say out in such a simple sentence. It got me thinking how true it is that we look for people in the things that they love. We always try to find out the favourite things of the people we care about, and just maybe we could gather something personal about them we don't know of. Songs, movies, books, anything they love. Why does he/she fancy this? Is there something he felt connected to from there? What about it? etc.

Ever since my break up, I've in this perpetual state of mess. I mean I don't feel hurt or anything anymore, and this state of mess isn't literal. I would say it's some what an emotional mess?

It's definitely a lot better now, I guess I just never got down to really to ironing out my thoughts.

You know that feeling you feel, when someone you trust and love promises to never be the one to pull the trigger and hurt you... but they end up being the one that hurts you the deepest? 

yeah that feeling.

when I watched this show that scene was one of the scenes that got to me because the memory of me trusting someone to not hurt me is still so fresh and vivid.

Apparently, Stuck In Love taught me that it's okay to give second chances. We have to be brave when it comes to heart affairs. We have to put our heart on the line. Humans wander, and humans get lost once in a while but we'll always find our way back and when we do, that's what second chances are for. Is that true? 

not many movies or things get to me and tug at my heart strings so.. :')

Shooting :')

Note: this was written quite long ago HAHAHA just didn't post it

Nationals just passed by not to long ago and I just thought I'll blog abit about everything :)

Few days before nats featuring me lying on this comfy as shit chair thingy and watching Jau as he trains for his nats which was the next day

last try before my nats! aka the day before.

took some pics with my rifle hehehe

NATS DAY!!!!

so... I would say like I was pretty DAMN nervous cause it would be my sixth and last nationals ;(

and of course I rlly wanted to do well = hopefully get an individual top 3 placing.

It was honestly the most scariest shoot I've ever had, in terms of the process. Didn't shoot my worst score thank God but it was still not my best score? :(

but but but.... by God's grace I came up 2nd on the individual placings!!!!! 

with an undesirable score.... I was rlly blessed :') blessed because the 3rd and 4th placings had my score too but I won by 3 inner tens. wow i needed a miracle and i got one :')

Yen treated us to lunch after Nats to celebrate!!! yay to post nats lunch with the team hehe

This shot is the 'annabel face' shot haha!!!! super cute they all rlly can pull of my face HAHAH

Li ran and I while waiting for prize presentation!!! 

Bumped into the temasek shooting juniors oh man they rmb me hehe they are so adorable.

Took a pic with them also but of cuz was too happy couldn't smile nicely LOL

Rachel!! who DSAed to mj and thought she shot rlly badly but she honestly didn't and I was proud of her :') look at the height disparity though HAHAHAHA

Never ever forget our roots man. once a temasekian always a temasekian.

Somehow temasek never fails to produce decent air rifle female shooters hehe 

Liran wanted to do this drinking from the trophy pose HAHAHA i found it rlly amusing HAAHAAHHAHAAHHAHA

Think everyone was high from victory so every one started drinking from the trophy LOLOLOL

This was exactly last year's nats heh so i wanted to take a pic similar to it

TADA heh :') defending team champs so proud of my team.

A div A rifle team champs, again SAY WHATTTTT hahaha :""")

 

Came up third last year, and second this year for individual placings, ever so grateful.

especially with such a bad score, wow only by God's grace haha.

NOT FORGETTING the CHALLENGE TROPHY hehehe 

i think it's for teams who have been champs for consecutive years? not v sure :(

Okay so this is my coach, Coach Li hehe. (even though he won't see this..)

Just wanna say thank you for always being so patient and tolerant of me. Thank you for listening to my woes and offering me advice. Thank you for reassuring me always, and telling me that I have potential to do well (it actlly means a lot to me). Thank you for doing so much for the team, like transporting the weapons alone all the time (i didn't even know about this till only much later ;()

I'm pretty sure I have a lot of things to thank you for that I haven't haha but yes, thank you so much coach. You're almost like my second father haha. 

xie xie ni :')

Next person I wanna thank would definitely be Mr Soh :-)

Thank you so much Mr Soh. You've been there since the temasek days haha.

I rmb how I used to rlly detest you a lot, back when I was all rebellious and angst. It's only on hindsight that I see where you were coming from :) And I guess it's cool how you were both my CCA & leadership grp tcher. Inspite of all your naggings and scoldings in the past, I'm really grateful to have met such a devoted and caring teacher. Thank you so so so much :')

one of the first few people I was rlly excited to tell about my victory to!!!

cuz the night before i was rlly nervous as hell haha

thank u for being there and telling me i'll do well, I really appreciate it.

thx for celebrating with me by following me to eat Ayam Penyet HAHA

embracing my chinky eyes man awyeahhhh HAHA

Team photoooooo!!!!

For the batch:

Thanks guys, for tolerating my nonsense HAHA aiya y'all know I love you a lot so yes mwah <3

Everyone was fascinated with the HUGE ass trophy thingy hahaha 

Otw back to school exhausted hahaha

guess this concludes my shooting journey in Rj. Didn't think I'd miss it but I kinda do :-(

only know how much you love it when you lose it haha.

every time someone asks what my cca they'll never get it right on the first try and the shock look on their faces after telling them what it is HAHA ahhhh good times heh.

for the millionth time, yes i'm a shooter :)))))

this sport will always have a special place in my heart :')