Hello hello this is such a dead space 

Meet me at 2 in the morning.

Have a stupid pimple on my nose and it's rlly in such a good position like wtf right smack there.

Need a hair cut lol

I am now using iPhone 5s! Hehehe loving it alr, esp the camera :') 

Couples who are meant to be, have the ability to find their way back to each other; as if they're naturally drawn to each other. Even if they were to lose each other over something unpleasant, somehow they'll just mend back the gap. 

As silly as this is going to sound, I think that everyone is born in a pair (male + female); they're also attached to each other with an invisible string. This string is designed to keep them near to each other and find their way back to each other when they are lost. 

And only time will tell, who'll be the one finding their way back to you.

(via  Irina's blog)

stuff on youtube

there are days when i'm just bored and at home idling around. I'm pretty much always on youtube cause it really kills time for me and i love watching videos. 

Especially ever since meaningful or funny videos start getting shared on Facebook (which is pretty much the only reason why I still use Facebook haha).

I do have a few channels I watch regularly, but there are always these random videos that really make me laugh. So i decided to share it to people who may be bored too or just love watching videos :-)

I'm up for videos of any genre except maybe gaming videos :-/

So yup here are some videos I've found recently!

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Cat that says 'NO' to bath time

What is this about?

basically a cat that says no to bath time. HAHA like cats generally dont like baths.

Belly's funny level: 2/5

It's not really funny, just adorable :-)

Youtubers reaction to farting preacher

What is this about?

A preacher that farts a lot WHILE preaching. Some times the farts are rather timely which just makes it funnier HAHA

Belly's funny level: 3.5/5

The preacher's is srsly funny. Maybe not really at the start but after awhile it really cracked me up HAHA

Shopping & Haul With Baby Glitter

What is this about?

Just Zoella shopping with her best friend's daughter :-) and them unwrapping after everything :-)

Just got to know about her recently, love her videos and her personality! 

The baby, Glitter in this video is also very cute :-)

Belly's funny level: 2.5/5

Its not really funny, more like awwwwwww. I think their accents play a part also haha :-)

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That's all for now! shall accumulate more links in the future 

( I watch vids on youtube too much HAHA)

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Snippets of my week

hello everyone! haha whoever that still bothers to come by this space.

Some random visuals in my iPhone recently.

Thursday, 7th Nov

My mum gave me 70 bucks to get a pair of vans cause there's this 30% thing going on for like selected styles.

I've been wanting to get maroon vans for the longest time :-( but its either OOS or like not available in my size. Dropped by Jurong point's Vans store.

I bought this maroon/bordeaux pair *__* the colour is so pretty i can't resist. 

best part? it was $69.90 haha no discount but within budget so BUYBUYBUY hehe

-Pictures do not do the colour justice-

In case you're wondering why they look so tiny... YA they are i'm a size 35 haha.

That day was spent running errands but the second half was just tragic...

something that made me really, really sad.

Sunday, 10th Nov

It was our 30th Month together! 

Didn't have any grand plans though cause there was school for both of us the next day :-(

He brought me to Nandos heh.

ootd shot of me that didn't get posted up on insta. 

I always take like 5-6 shots of my ootd but only end up choosing 1/2 haha.

I love this dress. i love dresses with cutouts and 

this one had cutouts that made the dress look so adorable hahaha.

 Wednesday, 13th Nov

Dropped by SP to do some girlfriend duty; visit Shawn. ;-)

he brought me around the campus, he did that last time but we didn't cover many places :(

This is the red bridge! such a nice place to take ootd shots hahaha

He had handball training after though.. so accompanied him till then. It was really nice just walking around the huge ass campus with him. We just talked and laughed and let time pass. Didn't do anything in particular but it was quality time spent :-)

caught up with one of my favourite guy friends, bryan! 

He was being exceptionally nice that day and accompanied me to H&M to get my office wear for the law programme. Actually just the skirt haha

It was quite intense cause H&M at somerset is undergoing renovations, so the lifts are not functioning and there are only changing rooms on the 1st and 3rd floor. 

Office wear for ladies was on the first floor, but the changing rooms on that level had major long queues the whole time. So we had to keep shuffling between 1st and 3rd floor. hahahaah it was quite funny cause the skirts were made of like office wear material so the sizing was a bit weird.

Leaving town for the east was another pain the ass cause the mrt stations were so packed >:

nevertheless it was a fun day and i got my skirt :~)

that's all for now till then x

So my dad and I are still having a cold war. lol this is srsly stupid as fuck but whatever

idek why he is angry at me????

whatever la i give up ugh

ANYWAY I PROMOTED WOOHOOOOO hahah

passed 3 out of 5 subjs :-) I am really satisfied with my results, like compared to my CTs and considering the amt of time i used to study for promos i'm contented. It doesn't meet everyone's  standard of good results, but i'm satisfied!!!! Cause everyone in sch is smart as hell?!?!!? haha

My top row of teeth are done alr! :-) YAY i'm so happy cause that means quick progress.

Gotta wait for the bottom row to finish shifting. Surprised everything's going so fine and fast, cause it's only been like... 5 months? I can remove my braces in abt 6 months!! 

My dentist only had colourless elastics at hand so i was fine with it, but it turned out to be more of a white colour than transparent :-( oh well

National flag on ma teeth

Singapore National Shooting Competition (SNSC) was held on Saturday! 

and... I came up THIRD??? like what even.

It's quite an epic story actually cause like the top 8 gets into finals and I was 5th.

Didn't expect to win anything cause like almost all the shooters were on the nat team! 

but wow hey i'm an underdog HAHA 

just a casual selfie 

Chinese As tmrw and OP on wednesday. 

PLS LEMME PASS CHINESE I DONT WANNA RETAKE THAT SHIT.

He has a dimple on the right, mine's on the left :-)

This was when we were in sec 3? if i'm not wrong :-)

Probably my favourite gif of us cause we look so young! 

hahah not that we're very old now but there is a difference definitely.

Some thing funny happened today. We went for dinner at macs. Being the gross ass me, I dripped coke into my chill sauce because i was bored and waiting for him to finish. 

I  said, "If you love me you'll dip your fry into this concoction and eat it."

and the next second, he dipped his fry into the sauce, ate it and continued eating. 

I was like wtf I was just joking?!??!!!? he just gave me the poker face.

I must say I felt all warm and fuzzy on the inside.

I love browsing through old pics, reliving the moments and just thinking back whilst looking at them. 

Hardly ever do this now cause I cleared the pics in my phone awhile back, 14,000 pictures was doing my laggy phone no good

It's not easy maintaining a r/s with someone that is on a different academic route.

I'm in JC, while he is in poly. That takes a toll on us, on me sometimes.

We don't get to see each other often anymore because of our horrible clashing schedules... 

and it isn't easy for me cause I was used to seeing him a lot more when we were in secondary school.

Being paranoid and annoyed with constantly being apart from him for long period of time makes me trigger fights just for the sake of using that as in avenue to vent my frustration. It's really dumb of me most of the time but i'm glad he didnt give up on me, on us :-)

Our fights are never easy to get through, some times they get the better of me.

The funny thing is, I kinda start them most of the time. Maybe it's the resort to feel secure. 

like, the "oh if he loves me, he'll fight for me" concept.

It's so difficult at times. I'm left to over think, and insecurity creeps on me over and over again. 

I can't deal with pressure and stress which is what JC throws at me all the time, and I always feel like I'm on my own now that he is in a poly.

Eye candies in JC make me consider the possibility of just giving up on this strenuous relationship that some times seem to never work out. 

But I realise that as much as i can see myself being with another guy, it will probably be a month or two kinda affair. I can't seem to see myself feeling secure with another.

It's probably because I'm actually a very complex and messed up person on the inside. and amongst that mess lies strands of vulnerability and fear of what lies ahead. idek if that made sense

I guess what i'm trying to say is that, I'm so glad we're still together. 

we got through our rough patches and are stronger than ever :-)

Despite the fact that he has seen my darkest sides, he still stayed and wants us to work out.

Even if we don't work out, I know he'll always have a special spot in my heart

alrighty PW here I come.

My talented father doing his archery.

Didn't plan on doing this, but well.

Honestly, I dont know why my dad and I keep having fights. 

We aren't VERY close but, not very distant either.

I was never a good daughter. I always got myself into trouble when I was younger, and I thank him for bearing with my mess. 

As I started to grow older, into my upper sec years and now, I feel like i'm really making an effort to have conversations with him and try to update him about my life.

But somehow, we still cant seem to see eye to eye at times.

I'll never be "daddy's girl". I've come to terms with that.

But I don't wanna bear grudges towards him, or him being unhappy with me all the time.

I think he feels that I mirror my mum, in the way she talks and behaves.

The thing is, they don't get along very well. Which is why he probably hates me at times because i'm like a mini her.

He doesn't see the bigger picture though.

I'm like him in many ways too. We both have strong personalities and are also very opinionated.

We share the passion for old music, both English and Chinese. 

I picked up shooting, which was also a sport he picked up when he was younger.

I have his small eyes, which i've learnt to embrace wholeheartedly.

Why can't he see these things in me?

I may have certain characteristics that my mum has. 

But I'm not her. Why do you treat me like how you treat her? 

I know I get on his nerves all the time. But I always end up apologizing.

Why can't he just let it go? 

Is our father & daughter r/s not worth more than a petty squabble?

Maybe it isn't. His pride is probably more important. 

HIM being right is more important in his eyes.

After reading this article by elitedaily, I don't wanna regret not telling/showing my parents that I love them and I really appreciate them. I wanna do my part as a filial daughter, to try and start showing my appreciation to him because he is getting older with each passing day.

It's not easy, but i'm willing to try. 

I am sorry for all the times I appear to be rude to him etc, but why can't he just let these arguments go?

It's emotionally draining for me, and the entire household while our "cold war" is going on.

If anything, these arguments have taught me to appreciate my other family members.

It has definitely always brought me closer to my mum and Nicholas, my brother.

My mum and I have our arguments too. But she always lets them go. 

Maybe that's why I feel close to her at times, because I know she won't ignore me because of a petty argument.

Nicholas is my youngest brother and he is 6 years younger than me.

Even though he can't do much, and he is also my dad's favourite, he will always offer to help me do things (like helping me get my pappy, charging my phone etc.) These acts may not be much, but it does show that he cares.

I still hope that my dad will learn to value me over the arguments we have or conflicts that seem unresolvable. 

He is my father after all, the one that loved me so much when I was younger, the one that never failed to provide things that would make me happy (like surprising me with my iPhone and whatsapping me to check how i'm doing). 

Similarities sometimes bring people together. They usually do.

Maybe this is something similar about the both of us. 

We never know how to show our love for each other through the right ways.

Sadly, this similarity brings us apart.

PROMOS OVA AND DONE WITH

This was taken during promos period:

Check out them designer ey3bag$, unkempt hair, disgusting skin

!!!PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!

Went walking around ikea with Shawn to shop for furniture for his new room, 

extremely tiring i cant even :'( 

HE GOT ME THE CARROT SOFTTOY.

I'm not a soft toy person, like I dont get soft toy as gifts or buy them frequently.

but this one's too cute! i wanted the broccoli one though, but carrot was cuter hehe

Post promos face: STILL designer ey3bag$, unkempt hair, disgusting skin LOLOL 

i'm weird pls dont judge 

Time to:

1. Work out and get rid of those FATSSSS

2. Try to sleep more haha

3. take care of ma face

4. shop 

5. shop

6. buy more shit 

7. earn some money $0b$

thank u for reading till then x

When emotions and thoughts don't mix well

Sometimes, i don't know how i feel.

Or what i want.

Maybe it's this promos thing that's screwing with my mind. It better be.

motivation right now right here

Just received my acceptance email for the:

5th SAL Junior College Law Programme (!!!!!)

Maybe everyone who applied got in.. I dont know. It doesnt really matter. I'm so happy i'm in for this. :-) GP was so-so today. Just glad i got by it.

This acceptance is my motivation right now. Dont laugh, it's really something small to many but BIG to me. I really wanna get my promos and be promoted.

I think I have exam anxiety. For real. 

Brb breaking into cold sweat just thinking about the 3 hr papers I have to get by tmrw. 

ECONS AND LIT oh my life.

at least it isnt history and econs like for CTs. Don't wanna taste death for the second time. 

Okay, back to studying, hopefully (i better) turn in by 12.

& to all the other struggling souls out there, you're not alone.

Do your best and let God do the rest. 

:-)

Till then x

Chinese O levels: to retake or not

I should be studying right now but I was JUST going to when I realised,

Tmrw's the release of Chinese Os results!

Good luck to everyone who's getting back their mother tongue results, be excited heh :-)

& to those who don't take chinese or mother tongue........

...........

So in the light of the special day tmrw for my juniors and many others, I thought i'll just blog about my O level chinese experience: doing the exam, getting back my results, going through it, deciding to retake or not etc.

Anyway my blog's quite dead so yup opportunity for revival and maybe offer my 2 cents for people who wants it -l o l-

Prepping and doing the exam:

My school really prepared us for the papers, and although it was relatively torturous, I think it REALLY helped me. We had intensive chinese week, which is basically a week of just doing papers non-stop everyday. As in, not continuously 24/7, but daily. We would do like sets and sets and other school papers (including comp and email writing). It was tedious for us la (DUH) but even more so for the teacher (YES they had to mark). Why did I think it really helped? Cause many people don't really take chinese lessons and homewk seriously (like me lol) and I really am not in touch with chinese, like in terms of writing and vocab... damn shitty haha. I don't pass up homewk unless my tcher damn pissed of or.. so yeah you get my drift. So the intensive week was really my saving grace :')

After the exam:

I was damn happy. Like for real. I didn't feel extremely good about the paper ( i never do for chinese haha) but I found it manageable :-) Although I knew that there might just be a possibility that I had to retake... deep down there was this part of me that was determined to not do chinese for Os ever again. I just knew it

Results day:

I rmb waiting with my schoolmates, waiting for our results. We were fretting like crazy HAHA good ol' times :')

I rmb telling my friend smth like: 

"Eh if God want me to retake let me get E8 then if he dont want then give me A plsssss" 

I was really hoping to get like a distinction, not for like pride but more of the fact that i don't have to think about whether to retake or not :-(

I GOT B3 haha

Retake or not?:

The moment I got B3 I knew God wanted me to decide, like it's right smack in the middle :-(

I was a bit disappointed but I knew I did my best. I got Merit for oral, which was not surprising cause i screwed oral up. My teacher wanted me to consider retaking cause he felt like I can get an A. but I really didn't want to retake cause Os was so near, and not like my other results v good that I can afford to spend time on Chinese. Also, I threw away everything in my mind that was Chinese related after the papers HAHA so I was rusty already. Plus, with the Chinese intensive week + I gave my best + never take with the other HMT students; I would think it's the best I can get. 

Just imagine taking at the end of the year with the HMT students.......... 

In the end, I didn't retake. It really wasn't an easy decision because I had 6 subjects (dropped pure sciences to comb sci to secure my A), and I had a DSA offer so I had to use my R5.

BUT I really don't regret it :-) 

I mean, Chinese was really like a distraction, v extra. HAHA maybe not to a major extent but in some way it was. Also, i mean if you already gave your best and had all the help you can get then maybe that's the best you can get? I didn't think I would be able to jump another grade up, and I didn't wanna waste my time trying :( In a way it motivated me to study even harder for my other subjs, cause I knew I had B3 for my Chinese already. 

SO YUP! 

For all those who are getting back your results tmrw, all the best :-) If you didn't do that well, or not up to your expectations, plsssssss pls think twice and thrice if you should retake! Don't regret any decision you make :-)

Hope this post has helped some one out there in a way or another, if not, thank you for reading anyway :-)

drop me a note @ ask.fm/annabelannabelz!

Till then x

Today was not too bad :-) 

Okay actually because i didn't rlly do any work but i'm making up for it now :'(

Random visuals up ahead 

Kinda like my hair now, although the curls are kinda not there anymore :p 

and this is not bad alr, considering i don't apply any creams to make the curls stay.

Thankful i HARDLY get very bad hair days :*)

Time to try and get my lit essay done,

I have no absolute idea what is it about though.... 

def not born with the lit flair

or any flair

lol

this post doesn't quite make sense

Yes, its a picture of us again.

It's 11:05pm and I should probably get my GP essay outline done asap (for my anal gp tcher) (who's gonna make me stay back tmrw) (fml).

But no, I can't seem to bring myself to complete it. So yes here I am.

I would say this is a form of escapism, which in my definition is to do other things that allows me to not do what i'm suppose to be doing.

I'm sorry if my blog is flooded with boring pictures of Shawn+I and school mates...

I have a very uninteresting life, with nothing much going on. 

I guess this is a space that's becoming much more personal to me cause although I don't have a lot of things going on right now, there are things going on and I just need an outlet. (does this make sense)

Shawn makes me happy, not superficially. It's not easy cause i'm always so messed up on the inside... with so much going on in my head.

He is there when I'm thoroughly upset, there when I need to share my joy with someone. 

It's probably due to the fact that I don't really have friends that bother to patronise me, but then again he doesn't really too, so we have each other. I guess when you think don't have things to be grateful for, you find the slightest things to be grateful for.

It's not because we are more than friends that I find comfort and joy in/with him. I would say even if we don't work out in the future, he'll still be my best friend (more like my soulmate), cause it's hard to find another that can understand you so well and still accept you as you are. 

Everyday it gets harder. I feel a bit more inadequate in every aspect, and it just breaks me down further.

Not being able to catch up in class, clearly knowing on the inside that I am very far behind academically. Getting excluded in conversations, as much as I try to be nice. Knowing time is running short and I may be the very cause of my own downfall. Trying to catchup but it seems almost impossible. Not being able to bring myself to do shit cause' I don't know where to start and when I do I hit road blocks and hide away like a coward.

As much as I try to tell myself it's okay to not to be regarded, I suppose I just have to get used to this. 

it's even harder to tell yourself to get back on track when you come home to know that there's problems between your parents. It's worse when you realise, honestly no one gives a shit. 

Move on. Kids in Africa are starving. Stop whining. 

I need to learn to be a noble gas (as quoted from prudence eons ago), unreactive.

Keep your head held high. Here's to anyone who feels like shit, you're not alone and it's okay to feel that way. Just don't let it get to you

loneliness

Sometimes we try too hard for people who don't deserve it.

Sometimes we yearn so much for any form of company, 

from people that just patronise us.

Maybe some people are just meant to be lonely.

NO do not blame it on their character or personality.

"You try so hard but you don't succeed, get what you want but not what you need."

Superficial friendships all around, but sometimes it hurts less to have some rather than none.

Well it's about time to embrace loneliness.

USS STUDENT PASS

In my attempt to keep my blog alive. haha

So these are a few pics taken on the weekend we decided to get the USS student pass heh

getting there is quite a hassle though:( at least to me.

My family had the sentosa islander card which grants unlimited access..

but expired alr so wtv haha.

Taking the monorail costs $4 if we use our ezlink cards,

which is considered ex alr cause USS is only one stop away >:(

So yup, for the sake of saving $$$, we walk to sentosa!

Save money + don't need to squeeze with tourists :-)

It's tough being with someone who's not in your school + not in the same acad route as you + ends school late + when your parents don't know abt you two.

but again, if you really want something to work out, it won't be easy, but it will if you put in the effort.

Days like these are so precious! 

When you don't have THAT much time together during the week, sweating and eating Doritos together is quite fulfilling (trust me, it is)

Short post but i'll be back with more soon hehe

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till then x

June Lusts

Haven't had time to properly update etc cause my life is boring like that haha.

BUT YES, here are my June Lusts :-)

Lace insert shorts:

Saw these on Zara on sale at $39!! didn't get them though not my idea of sale price.

Rainbow knit:

Not rlly into the pastel dipdye colors so i rlly like these cause it has a metallic tint to it :-)

White cut out dress:

Ombré denim dungaree:

Maroon oversized knit cardi:

I bought this!!!!! from a reseller.

FOR NINE BUX

favefavefave

So yup! i'll update soon again.

Till then x

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